A Snippet of My Thoughts this Holloween

On the scariest night of the year, this is what haunts me: 

 What if we’ve never met in 1998?

Finally, CLARITY.

They were right about you.

They were wrong about me.

Bleeding L♥VE in Red & White

I finally found someone to bleed dry for…

…to bleed dry with.   

 By Jonas Ybañez of SKINDEEP Tattoo, 5 October 2009

"I can’t save you from yourself."

By: SCARLET

You’d rather drown yourself in drink than make yourself sit down and think.
You’d rather lie in bed all day and keep those demons well at bay.
Oh, you mess things up. Oh, you’re dangerous. And I’ve tried to see you through it all and I don’t wanna watch you fall.

But I can’t save you from yourself. I’d kill myself if it would help.
I’ve had enough of wasting time. I’ve got to let you know that I love you like no one else.
But I can’t save you from yourself. I can’t save you from yourself.

You’d rather go hurt someone else than run the risk they’d hurt you first.
You’d rather go for second place than go for first and lose the race.
Oh, you screw things up. Oh, you’re dangerous. And I’ve tried to see you through it all and I don’t wanna watch you fall.

But I can’t save you from yourself. I’d kill myself if it would help.
I’ve had enough of wasting time. I’ve got to let you know that I love you like no one else.
But I can’t save you from yourself. I can’t save you from yourself.

You’d rather I was not your friend for fear I’d leave you in the end.
I know you’d like to change your ways and sure as hell if you don’t, you’ll pay.
Oh why do you fuck things up? Oh you’re dangerous.

But I can’t save you from yourself. I’d kill myself if it would help.
I’ve had enough of wasting time. I’ve got to let you know that I love you like no one else.
But I can’t save you from yourself. I can’t save you from yourself.

"Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity."

You are, perhaps, the best and worst thing that has ever happened to me.

I don’t hate you because you cheated on me. I hate you because you told her my weakness.  You’ve made a fool out of me and a mockery out of my dreams. I have made truths out of all your lies, fabricated honesty out of your deceit for much too long already. And we both know that I badly need to walk away.

It would be really nice of you if you let me try.

Gravity by Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I’ll still feel you here ’til the moment I’m gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.

You loved me ’cause I’m fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you’re everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you’re neither friend nor foe though I can’t seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down.

♫ You and I ♫

You and I will travel far together.
We’ll pursue our little star together.
We’ll be happy as we are together.
We may never get to heaven but it’s heaven, at least, to try.

That only time can make
That only love can make
That only we can make
You and I

Mesmerized

“I could hold you forever but that would never even be long enough.”

By: Lifehouse

I’m filling a space
Burning a chapter of your life
This was the place that only you would know
Walking away
Watching the ashes as they fall

Reaching into your eyes
I can feel you crawling
Through my veins like
Catching the first sunrise
Mesmerized

Sometimes when I’m with you
These feelings falling
Like a landslide
As both of our dreams collide

What made my 4th of July 2009

Exhausted after my Property class, I wanted to get drunk with friends to console my week-long caffeine and reading overload. But it rained and it reminded me of That Damn Asthmatic Patient.

Coughing back and forth and heavy breaths in constant mode, she took my hand and said: “Mine ka na lang tonight, ha? Let’s eat adobo and corned beef and watch Star Movies. I’m yayay man. Let’s tagay na lang next week, ha?”

The Davao Virgin Shock

1 May 2009, Friday.

I spent an hour at   the new smoking lounge of Mactan International Airport waiting for my Davao-bound 2pm flight via Cebu Pacific Air doing what is perhaps my most favorite thing in the world—smoking. Oh so excited as it was my first time in the city of durian. Even more excited to meet new people in Samal Island.

The Davao-bound passenger’s must-haves: Boarding pass & cigarettes

Imagine my shock when my plane made its touchdown in Davao International Airport with the cabin crew announcing the city ordinance concerning smoking.

Davao is a smoke-regulated city and when caught smoking (except at designated areas), one shall be fined Php10,000.00 and a jail time of not less than 24 hours. SERIOUSLY!

A Sweet Surrender

I am lost when you’re nowhere to be found. I am a mess when you’re away. You keep me together. I only cling so you need not hold on too tight. I only tug when you turn to walk away. You see, I am a helpless child around you. And unknowingly, you have won another kind of my alter ego.

It’s a sweet surrender…a kind of bliss only I could fathom. It’s when you hold me when I could close my eyes and fly. You make me adore every bit of you despite all the manic tantrums. It’s a crazy mad love and I’d die without it.

Let’s not fight. I hate fighting over silly things, although I love the moment when we just laugh it off after the tears. Let’s not fight and waste more time. Time is not on our side. Remember, we’re not vampires. We don’t have eternity. Let’s just hold each other until the world around us rots away.

"She’s the sweetest drug."

I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it. Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit. But I doubt it. I’m taken by the thought of it. And I know this much is true.
Baby, you have become my addiction. I’m so strung out on you. I can barely move but I like it.

And it’s all because of you. And it’s all because…
Never get enough. She’s the sweetest drug. Ain’t no doubt…so strung out over you.

-NEYO                 

With this song, I shall now surrender. Whatever the future has and however it unfolds, I come to you…shall stay with you…now and for always.

My Sweetest Downfall

 

SAMSON by Regina Spektor

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn’t mention us
The bible didn’t mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first , I loved you first
Beneath the stars came falling on our heads
But they’re just old light
They’re just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors and the yellow light
He told me that I’d done alright
and kissed me till the morning light the morning light
and he kissed me till the morning light

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonder bread
and went right back to bed
We couldn’t break the columns down
No, we couldn’t destroy a single one
and the history books forgot about us
and the bible didn’t mention us
not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first